Andrea Marston
Where are you? Are you okay?
I used to listen to music through your chest
You smelt like freshly baked bread
My hands felt whole with yours in it
My heart felt home within yours
It has been you all this time
Even after you left my side
It never stopped being you
New faces and new hearts
Filled my days and mind
But my heart is your home
You trashed it to pieces when you were here
But when you left it felt empty
Stars and hammocks feel empty too
You left behind broken pieces and sad songs
You left behind someone who loved you so much
I could have loved you enough for you and me
I could have loved all those broken pieces of yours
But I had to leave you behind to be my own hero
I had to show myself the love you could not show me
You never gave me a chance because of my body
When I gave you all the chances in the world
My heart carries love and pain for you every day
But when I found out you struggled after we were done
When I found out that you tried to end it all
When I found out you might not be on this planet anymore
Nothing but love resurfaced for you
Nothing but the wish that you were well
I wish I could have loved you in a way that you would have felt it
I wish I could have loved you in a way that saved us both
