39

39 years alive

34 years trying to fix myself

34 years waiting to be fixed until…

… loved myself

… lived my life

… chased my dreams

… opened my heart to love

Countless years of being overwhelmed…

… and hating myself.

AND THEN A MOMENT…

A shift

I see life and love does not live in the past

Or in the future fixed life, I keep chasing

Life is the nothingness right in front of me

And who am, as I am got me here

She showed up every day to be me

And NOW I love her for that endlessly

It feels like the beginning of a whole lot of I don’t what

But damn, I am ready to find out